I grew up in a remote village in the mountains of Jamaica, one child among ten brothers and sisters. I had little distraction in this tranquil setting. The simplicity of walking through the woods with my older brother left a memorable imprint on my heart.
I was deeply affected by childhood wounds. I was singled out by my mother who continually targeted me with judgement, blame, and threats. Mother even accused me of being responsible for her difficulties in giving birth to me. While growing up she would threaten to sell me in the local market. There was also physical abuse from her and sexual abuse from an older brother. I ended up withdrawing from my family, spending most of my early years alone.
All my life I have been attracted to the world of Spirit … that non-physical world that is cloaked in mystery. As a little girl, the mystery of God never failed to be alive in my thoughts. Intuitively I began walking a spiritual path that has continued for most of my life. I was very introspective and mainly stayed by myself. Thoughts would arise … Why am I here? Why was I born?
As time went by, the mystery of my soul’s journey unfolded.
I consciously disconnected from my childhood memories, although the memories never left me. The mystery of my soul’s journey unfolded while I was going through deep emotional despair in my late thirties. In what I can only describe as a ‘mystical moment,’ my 10-year-old self appeared before me with a deeply saddened face. She stood there looking intensely into my eyes.
I was not happy to see her. I repeatedly told her to go away. She would have nothing of it and lingered for three weeks with no verbal communication. I finally came to realize that I had to connect with her.
Not knowing how to go about this, all I could do was to feel the emotions I had locked away. I was guided to go through a self-healing. Through the process, I came to deeply understand the depths of human conditioning and how much it affected the human spirit.
Eventually, I became a spirit-based indigenous healer. For 30 years I have served thousands of clients to release the veils of human conditioning. In the process it became clear that our tender hearts cannot experience true peace until the True Self – the unconditioned Self that we are – is unveiled.
On a flight home to Jamaica in 2012, I was reading a book authored by Jed McKenna. In an instant, I was jolted into an altered state. About 20 feet down the aisle appeared a cloud-like figure of my current self. Instantly I knew the image was the person I had been conditioned to be.
She was not the True Self. She was a mirage. It was Me, True Self, that was doing the witnessing. The True Self had no problems. It was simply the witnessing Presence observing the person I had thought I was for all my life. I, True Self, was seeing that all along I had mistaken my True Nature for the person that I was conditioned to be by ancestral heritage, past experiences, family values, and societal norms.
This was my spiritual awakening: I, True Self, woke up from the fiction of Radavie – the conditioned self — that I, up until now, believed My Self to be.
In less than an instant, all aspirations I’d been harboring for years to achieve higher levels of spirituality were seen as coming from the conditioned self, the person, that I had mistaken My Self to be. To think, I had spent nearly a lifetime cultivating a spiritual persona and engaging in spiritual practices only to be constructing a mirage.
A major shift of perception had taken place. The person – the mirage – was not the True Self I have always been. In that moment I saw the mirage as an imposter that portrayed a non-existent person, a ghost that I had all along mistaken myself to be.
This was my awakening to Truth. The realization was a shock. There was no turning back from this shift in perception.
In my late 70s, I began to receive messages. My first was a vision of a three-year-old boy. With one hand above his head holding a Golden Key, he announced that “they,” the Divine Sparks, are here to help the adults, but first the adults must release the Sparks from bondage.
In the words of the Divine Sparks…
“Our deepest unbearable pain is to know that our love can’t be felt in the world. That is our deepest pain.”
After the awakening, the mystery of my soul’s journey unfolded. I had to continue my purification by releasing any emotional imprints left behind. In the process it became clear that our tender hearts cannot experience true peace until the True Self – the unconditioned Self that we are – is unveiled.
The Divine Sparks collectively revealed to me that they are the essence of our soul, the Light of Awareness that illuminates — makes known — all that is experienced. My soul agreed to be the harbinger of their messages of peace.
In the words of the Divine Sparks…
“We are glad that you are here, Mother.
We would have been locked away for more lifetimes.”
As a collective, the Divine Sparks are emphatic in proclaiming that they want their cry to be heard by humanity. Their messages and my devotion to the Divine are the inspiration for my book. It’s entitled…
The Divine Spark speaks…
Awaken to Inner Peace
In the Midst of Chaos
from Human Conditioning